The Best Buy Christmas

The season of working at BB is almost over. I could call it the season of humility lessons.

Forty people were hired for Christmas.... only 8 will be hired on after the holidays...

I thought I had a good chance w/ all of my experience BUT I lost a stupid check from my register for $50 and I am not the brightest light bulb brain wise sometimes.

So... I wait....

We need the $$$$$. I need to be home..... same old dilemma.

Today I was driving listening to Christmas music. I have really been struck on Jesus, as a precious little baby. It brings tears to my eyes. so amazing....

Amazing that God would give such a preious gift to us... to me....

I had wondered if God ever regretted it... like how could he not feel regret for sending Jesus to save us? What am I compared to Jesus.

I know God doesn't regret it at all... just the opposite....

His love takes my breath away...

This Really Sucks

okay, i have started my j.o.b at Best Buy. Yes, I AM thankful for a job. however...

I AM SICK OF WORKING NIGHTS AND WEEKENDS!!

Today I go to an employee meeting. We break out into departments. This is the first time meeting all of my co-workers. One of my son's friends work there. (ugg... that really bugs me that I am working with my children's friends... I feel like such a loser)

anyway, the dept. mgr announces that we are going to have a contest and divide up into 2 teams...My son's friend is a captain along with this other girl. then the dept mngr announces that they are going to choose teams.

oh no!!!! I am having flash backs to middle school....

Yes, I am chosen last.... on my son's friend's team

This situation just sucks... sorry for the language... but I am struggling here....

I have been working nights and weekends for 18 years.....

I could be a manager for heaven's sake.... if I didn't have my children....if I didn't have 6 sweet kids...i love them... love them with a passion.... love them so much that I will work at Best Buy... trying not to cry because i hate this so bad...

I could be a nurse... or a teacher....

I trying not to feel bad about myself... but

just but...

Where Have I Been?

Top 10 Reasons that I Have Not Been Blogging

1. I am taking my kids EVERYWHERE. I live in my car and it looks it!

2. I am been loving going to Gold's gym and working out. whoo who!!! LOVE IT!!!

3. I went and had my hair touched up. The price has gone up so I am not so sure that i will be able to afford to go again....

hmm, after second thought I will... I will just HAVE to find a way...

4. I am Lindsey's homeroom mom.

5. I am Lindsey's soccer team's mom.

6. I started a new job at Best Buy. I wish I could DITCH that stupid blue shirt.

7. I went shopping to find cool clothes to go with that blue shirt that will make me feel better about the whole thing. Best Buy is really NOT me.

8. I actually went out of town by MYSELF to visit my friend, Gina, in Fernandina Beach. I got to listen to what i wanted on the radio and turned it up. NO ONE complained about the "80's music

9. I have been trying to get all of the clothes,shoes, and accessories ready for my daughters to be in our church's over the top Christmas play. this program is SO much work but worth it on the performance days. : )

10. the number one reason that I have not been blogging:

I Have Been On Facebook.

okay, so now I am off to visit some more of my fav blogs.

xoxo

Thank you, Sue

Sue at Praise and Coffee has monthly givaways and MUCH to my surprise... I won! she had a garage sale and sent three bloggers a box of her "stuff"

Here are the pictures!

I love the "Hope." I was having a really bad day and I just prayed to God, more like talking actually, saying..." I'm feeling really low on hope"

and Guess What I received in the mail just a couple of hours later?!

Yes, I got a little 'Hope."

God sure has a sense of humor! Oh, and Bill's new digital camera came at the same time! So, thanks to Bill for taking the pics and showing me how to access them!

Family Pictures... at last!!

Picture 1 is my sweet Hannah, she is 11... almost 12.
Picture 2 is my sweet Katie.... and her bandaged finger. she had a severe reaction to some sort of spider bite... two huge blisters formed... It looks like a bad burn... We have had daily dr's visits to make sure it is healing, : (

Picture 3 is me and my precious daughter, Lindsey. She is very soon to be 6 years old.

Status Updates that I wish i could put on my facebook.

Natalie:

needs to get a life

doesn't know what to think about her church

is afraid to vote one or the other in the election.

is too obsessed with exercise

is missing friends

wishes my family could move

hates cliques and elitism

wishes I loved more... had the capacity to love more

isn't conservative

isn't liberal, either

Tell Me What You Think

Alright, with all of the financail concerns in the news, I would like to pose a question...

Do you think that the US is headed for certain economic disaster on the level of the Great Depression?


I was surprised to hear of people that are beginning to stockpile food, water and other essentials.
I really hope that our country does not have to go through that suffering but i have been thinking that the US is such an anomoly. Other nations suffer.
We have more "stuff" than the rest of the world.

Do you think that US Christians are going to go through a time of intense persecution?

Again, We all know of the extreme persecution around the world.

Do you think that these two questions are tied to the upcoming election?
oops! a political question... will it get me in trouble????

He has rescued me with His strong right hand...sing alleluia

Those are the lyrics to one of my favorite songs by Roy Fields!

It is so true in my life. Today while I was at the gym, I watched "I Lost It." Great show on how people lost an extreme amount of weight. I felt like crying for them. both ladies talked about the freedom that they feel now. I can say..

So do I!!!!

A couple of years ago... 10 years ago actually... God showed my this passage in Isaiah 43:

"Fear not, For I am with you. I have summoned you by name, you are MINE (i just love that)

WHEN you pass through the waters , I will be with you...they will not sweep over you.
WHEN you walk through the fire... you will not be burned..."

That does not sound like fun... and it isn't

Water= anorexia & binging

Fire= the "stuff" that causes be to binge and starve myself

fear of rejection...past hurts...

BUT

God is with me... because:

" He is the Lord my God...
since you,(me) are precious and honored in His sight...

AND

because He loves us" Is43 1-4

those verses makes my eyes well up with tears almost every time...

they have been burned into my heart.

Read This... so True.... by Katherine Ruonala

Job 42:5


"I have heard of You by the hearing of the ear, But now my eye sees You. Therefore I abhor myself, And repent in dust and ashes."

Truly there is a cleansing wave moving through the church. Seeing God in his holiness brings us to a place where we remember how small we are and how ugly sin and pride is. Listening to Heidi Baker preach tonight I was reminded of a word the Lord spoke to me many years ago in my living room. It was near midnight when everyone else was asleep and I'd heard the Lord call me to pray. As I talked with Him about the desire in my heart to see the lost saved and the sick healed I remember hearing the Father say to me, "you'll need to take off your jewellery". I didn't really understand what the Lord was meaning. Jewellery to me was stuff that made you pretty - why did He need me to take it off? But true beauty does not come from outward adornments and I believe that the Lord was speaking to me about the things I would do and say to try to make myself pleasing and acceptable to others. Interestingly, the more I tried, the more I seemed to find rejection.

God is looking for broken and contrite hearts that have run into a revelation of the Glory of God. Seeing Him shows our adornments for what they really are - rubbish compared to His beauty. All our efforts at making ministry acceptable, our efforts to make ourselves attractive, our self-righteousness and our selfish ambition, our self-promotion, self-pity and jealousy are shown up in His light as the dung they really are and we are brought to a place of loathing it all. It is there, in that place of revelation that we must humble ourselves so that He can lift us up.

In this time of global shaking, repent and humble yourself before God. Seek His face and the Lord will reveal His majesty to you and give you eye salve so that you can see your true state and cry out for the help that we all so desperately need from Him. I am so excited about all God has in store for us this week at the Glory Gathering. Thank-you Father for your cleansing wave. Lord give us eyes to see and ears to hear what you are saying and doing and help us to offer ourselves up as sacrifices for your Glory.

Much love,
Katherine

This is from a newsletter that I recieve from Katherine Ruonala. Here is the link to her site:newday.com.au

Slaying Giants

So, I took a little break from blogging and i returned because I really wanted to write about the new journey that I am on.

It is actually a journey that I have been walking for WAY too long. I am going to be transparent... i just can't help it... I just have a big mouth! lol

Giant number 1-anorexia... from the time I was 16

starving myself


Giant number 2- Binging(is that how you spell it?)

Two sides of the same coin....

Pictures-2006

I am not very good at this! The first pic is Jonathan,the second is Emily, and the third is Lindsey.

My New Blog!

I have missed blogging!


I have been wanting to re-create my blog but have been so busy doing...


Workouts! I joined Gold's Gym on August 1. I love it! I do RPM and Body Pump classes and "run" on the treadmill. I say "run" very loosely because I am so slow.

DRIVING my kids EVERYWHERE!!!!! I am in that old van as much as 4-6 hours a day!!!!! Maybe I will start listening to books on cd!!!! lol

Face book! I live on there. It is fun and addicting...

but I have missed my blog friends.

I am going to post pics on the blog. PROMISE!!! I am buying my husband a new camera for his birthday... so I can use it to show you all my life lol!!!


I am so excited blogging again!


I am tired of the old templates. Where and who can I get to do a really nice blog for me?... inexpensive like?....


Welcome to my new blog! I look forward to this new journey!


xoxox